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The Beauty of Uncertainty: Each Day is a Blank Canvas

Every New Day

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” ~Mark Twain

It occurred to me one day, while staring at my computer at work, that I have always been uncomfortable with the idea of having uncertainty in any area of my life.

I plan my schedule rigidly, including what social/extracurricular activities I’m going to do over the next week. I take very few risks, and when I do take one, I vow to never do it again. You could say I live life very safely and am a “stick to the rules” kind of person.

At this moment, I am feeling anxiety from thinking about all the things I have no control over.

I am about to finish graduate school with a doctorate in biology and I have no idea what I’ll be doing next. Will I actually submit my thesis by the March deadline? What will the peer review process be like for my publication—will it require me to delay my graduation?

This can even go further into my personal life. Where will I be living next? Who will I be with? Will I get married within the next five years? Will I be happy where I am?

As I sit here and think of these questions, I feel a huge black cloud hovering above me. When I think of the future I don’t see any clear pictures, but instead, a blank canvas.

I see uncertainty as something to fear because it is unknown.

Uncertainty leads to changes in life that we may or may not be prepared for, or expect at all. These changes can be good for us, or they could tear us apart. There is even research on the ethics of uncertainty, so I know that I’m not alone in fearing uncertainty, but…

Why? Why do we fear not knowing? Why must we try to exert control on every aspect of our lives?

We make schedules every day, we plan ahead for events, we fall into this routine of life because we know what to expect.

We like knowing what to expect. We know that on Monday we are going to wake up and go about with our morning routine, go to work, come home, and either have plans with other people or continue with our nighttime routine. It’s back to square one on Tuesday. 

We feel comfortable knowing that we have something to look forward to. When we lose this control, it results in discomfort, anxiety, and fear, and this can break us apart

What if you woke up one day and that certainty in life was taken away from you? What if you were essentially placed on a blank canvas and had to paint your life as you go?

How would you feel? Even writing about living on a blank canvas stirs fear of uncertainty within me. It’s because uncertainty equals risk. You are risking treading into waters that you’ve never waded through before. You don’t know if there are “sharks” out there.

But, what if you end up liking what’s in the previously unexplored waters? You’re risking change happening. You are risking doing something you didn’t think you’d do, feeling something you didn’t think you’d feel, or being someone you didn’t think you would be.

Uncertainty sometimes forces us to explore aspects in life we never even knew existed, and that’s what makes uncertainty and change so beautiful.

Think back to a time when you tried something new or met new people and it/he/she/they became an important part of your life. It’s because you went past your fear of uncertainty and took a risk.

Not all risks result in negative outcomes. In fact, all the risks you’ve taken up to this point have brought all those things and people into your life that you have today. Or maybe all the risks taken have led you to eliminate what has been toxic in your life.

Either way, change and uncertainty are crucial in the process of creating the type of life we want to live and the people we want to be. I think we should open our eyes and embrace not having everything figured out all the time. Every once in a while, we should wake up with no plans and just paint as we go.

If you think about it, the only thing permanent in life is change. The process of growing from a baby into an old man or woman involves necessary (and quite remarkable) changes. Seasons change. Our minds are constantly in a state of change and help us adapt to physical, spiritual, mental, and emotional choices we make in life.

Change can be good. We should be grateful that we are alive and even have the choice to change and accept changes. We should be grateful for the changes that life forces us to make that ultimately end up painting a better life for us.

Each day is a new blank canvas. How lucky are we to be able to continually renew like this? To be able to start all over every day?

All the uncertainty you’ve openly embraced, the fear you put aside to try something new, and the changes you’ve made thus far have made you the person you are this moment, reading this article.

While there are certainly (no pun intended?) moments in life that you may not think have been for the better, they are guiding you on the path to where and who you’re meant to be. Take risks in life. Wear your heart on your sleeve. Be vulnerable.

Just like in the Mark Twain quote above, we should explore life, create room to discover new things, and go for our dreams. We should be open-minded, explore the unknown, meet new people, and accept change and uncertainty.

We should be excited that every day we get to wake up and automatically have a new beginning on that blank canvas. The whole world is at our hands and feet, and we get to move in whichever direction we choose.

Let’s wake up every morning, grab that paintbrush, and embrace all the colors and strokes we choose to paint, as well as what life paints for us.

You have all the colors, brushes, and various materials to create what you envision, but make sure to enjoy every moment of the process, especially uncertain ones, in creating your beautiful masterpiece.

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About Nina Hosmane

Nina is a certified 200 hours yoga teacher and is currently finishing up her Ph.D. She aspires to fuse her passion for yoga with her scientific research background to explore the complex biology behind our mind-body connection, like the effects of stress on disease progression. Aside from yoga she enjoys reading, writing, and spending quality time with her loved ones.

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  • Andrea

    Lovely, Nina, thank you. As someone who has been forced into a lot of changes over the last six months, I know that all of this is true. I now look at change as a positive thing – one that’s leading me to a greater, more fulfilling life. You have to embrace it, though, otherwise it can seem overwhelming and scary.

    Thanks for sharing.

  • Nina

    You’re welcome, Andrea! I am so inspired by your strength in seeing uncertainty as a stepping stone to a more fulfilling life. The only constant we have in life is change and embracing the changes in life is what truly helps us grow as people. You are absolutely right in that we have to embrace it and take back our power from the fear we feel. Sending you warm wishes and love!

  • Bullyinglte

    Nina, you are so right. My favorite saying is: “Yesterday is history, tomorrow a mystery, today is a gift. And that’s why it’s called the present.” Letting go of the past and living in the now is one of the most important things to me. It keeps me grounded. Thanks for sharing.

  • Nina

    I love that quote! 🙂 I completely agree with you in that letting go of the past and focusing on the present is what will keep us grounded in life. Thank you for being an inspiration — sending warm wishes and love!

  • Beautiful! This is exactly what I needed to read today. All morning I’ve been beating myself up about a choice I made a couple years ago that has taken me on a completely unexpected path — and, in fact, it’s mostly been fine. Just a lot of uncertainty and not where I thought I wanted to go. I needed the reminder that I don’t need to have everything figured out. Thank you.

  • Nina

    You’re very welcome, Leslie! Sometimes we all need a reminder that we don’t need to have everything in life under control, that it’s okay to give up some of that control and embrace what comes our way. Sending warm wishes and love your way!

  • Andrea

    Absolutely; I think I would have become depressed had I allowed fear to take a hold of me. I do not want to go down that road, so I’m embracing it, one beautifully uncertain day at a time 🙂