Thank you so much for taking the time to reply this, love. This meant a lot to me, to know that someone else too is facing the same thing. One thing that has kept me going is that I know I can’t live in the past, i can only work on my self moment to moment, making sure i am no longer that monster in the now.

I’m grateful for all that i have, and being grateful has helped a lot. What ive realized is, we can only feel one emotion at a time, and i have the power to choose which to feel. Because often, my mind is creating false stories, energizing the fear. And then i am trapped in a vicious loop.

But meditating has helped so much, and this website, and sharing, and loving.

Thank you again. <3