So i met this guy 3 years Ago. Im 24 hes now 34. The next day he was going back home (almost 10000 miles away fr Where i live). We started texting, Fell in crazy love in a long distance relationship. We were seeing each other on average every two months either him or me visiting.
A year and à half Later i figured out he has sexual Problems. I loved him too much and Had no Problem about it (is love about Sex Only?) All i asked him was to do something about it (it was reversible with physical exercise and less stress at work). He didnt do anything about it for more than a year. But he always treated me like à princess. We barely ever fought over major issues. He was the type of person who is very analytical and thinks with his brain. He made himself and became a very successful man, very financially secure. He always supported me through everything and never judged me even though im a very difficult girl to be with. He’s a Perfect husband à girl could ever wish for. But because hes older than me, it was always stressing Me that i thought we should Soon do the next step (fiancee, marriage etc..) . So i told him we do it when i graduate and I move in with him. The closer i got to my graduation day the more stressed i became, im still Not ready. I still wanna see other guys, have fun in my life, be single for a while. That’s when I asked him for a break. I saw other guys mainly just for fun. One Guy (G) completely Fell for me, and i Let him. But then made it clear that I Only want to be alone which hurted him à lot. I was still on a break with my bf anyway. One week After, my bf says he wants to come for à visit. After thinking about it, i told him Not to. What were we doing lying to ourselves. He will come, we will be Very happy and lie to ourselves with the hope that one day we will be together, the he leaves again and i will think i need affection when hes not here and Start thinking again about dating other guys. We will not be together anytime Soon (not before 3 to 6 months) unless someone of us makes à Huge sacrifice (i know, we waited 3 years already, but…). I told him I was unhappy, i needed to end it. And that’s what we did on a Skype call where we both cried for hours. We now talk every 2-3 days and I miss him like hell. Meanwhile, me and G were getting closer to each others. I told him we will never be together and I’m not ready for it, but this didn’t stop us from falling madly in love with each others. I love the fact that we in the same country, that i can feel him/see him/touch him whenever I want to. Hes the complete opposite of my ex. Emotional-dreams driven, living by the day, not even half as financially secure as my ex. He kisses me / touches me like I think no-one else will in my entire life. He has a very expensive hobby, he pays a lot of money on, so he doesn’t have a lot of money or readiness to start a family, which relieves me but at the same time would be a problem in case we decide to be something in the future. He fights with me sometimes over my actions and I find it super amusing/challenging. I missed someone judging me and I honestly think some of the stuff I do are insane and has to be changed. He asked me if I want to be his gf last night. This certainly stressed Me a lot but I said yes coz I thought it would make him happy. When I’m with him I think he could really be the one for me. When I’m not I only think that I need a break and I’m not ready for this. We are so different in many ways, but we merge so perfectly emotionally. I can’t let him go again coz I did it a couple of times before and it hurted him à lot. What’s worse is that I haven’t told my ex about him yet. I’m really scared to lose him, I still think about him a lot. Sometimes I think “am I really gona leave my ex (the entire perfect package that comes with him) for a guy like G? He doesn’t even know what he’s doing in his own life, or where he’s going.

Should I tell my ex about G (knowing that telling him might end us completely?)

Should I tell G I need a break to be alone? (knowing that last time I did it, it hurted us both a lot and we couldnt continue with it)

Should I find job opportunities next to my ex and give us a chance again?
(knowing that distance was one of the major reasons we broke up)

The entire thing is very confusing/sad. I would appreciate some help. Thank you.