I am a 23 years old which is passing through the most misserable moment of her life. I was forced to move to another country 10 years ago due to economic problems. Since I was here, I had problems to find friends and I never felt fully integrated with them. I was always the one who had to make the first step and call people to go out because no one did it. Despite of that I was feeling ok because I knew that at least I had someone there. My parents moved to another city (in the same country) and I stayed here to continue with my studies. Now I’m in the worst moment of my life. I basically lost the few friends that I had; they didn’t treat me correctly and don’t speak to me anymore. My parents live very far from me and even though I try to speak with them about my problems they don’t understand me. I have a long distance relationship with my boyfriend for 1 and a half year and we try to see each other often and he tries to support me but I behave very bad with him sometimes. I feel frustrated with everything because I feel lonely. I feel bad for spending my time alone in the house and not having someone with who I can speak so sometimes I pay this frustration with him. I miss him very much and I get angry because he is not with me. I understand that long distance relationships are difficult and I was able to manage it at the beginning but right now with everything that is happening in my life I just feel that I don’t want to live. My boyfriend and my parents give me tips of how to behave and cheer myself and even though I understand them I feel only that I want to lay in the bed and cry. I feel too lonely and see everything very negative. I struggle to wake up and go to classes, I barely eat… this is killing me. I feel that I will get mad soon. I don’t have any money to pay for psychiatrists. I know that I have to change the way I see everything but I don’t know how to start. I feel bad for crying all day to my parents and boyfriend because I don’t want this to affect them. My boyfriend told me that since some months he just recieves sadness, crying and fights from me and he cannot stand more seeing how I’m killing myself… I need to start living again somehow.