September 4, 2013 at 5:55 pm #41756
I have been trying to fight the voices in my head. some days are better than others. I’m definitely struggling now as I’m finding that I really don’t like my new job. and I’m feeling stuck because I’m the major bread winner in my house. I’m also getting headaches that may or may not have to do with the new job. It may just be menopausal symptoms. I don’t know. I just know that I go back and forth in this head of mine. One day I’m so UP, the next kinda down. and today should have really been an “up” day because I figured something out and made someone happy at work. but because I’m not feeling physically well, guessing that’s why I’m not up.
I’m also not really liking my new job. sort of a long story. it’s a hard job which I looked at as the challenge I needed. it’s frustrating in that this company really doesn’t have their poop in a group. It took 3.5 months to finally get all the access that I needed just to DO the job. My phone wasn’t changed to my name until 4 plus months into the job and I found that out when someone called me by mistake. “oh sorry Sally, I must have dialed wrong.” Right, I’m not Sally. She was the gal that had the job before me. my absolute favorite was receiving an email to give feedback for part 2 of orientation. but guess what? I didn’t go and wasn’t even invited!! this company seems so lame.
I feel like this post is a bit jumbled due to my physical state. I’ve had a headache for a week which now feels like it’s turning into fatigue…..
I guess I’ll stop here and hope that someone has words of wisdom. thanks so much.September 4, 2013 at 10:15 pm #41787
Lyn F. GanoParticipant
I landed a job that I had dreamed of for many years when I was 26. It was a large international corporation. I imagined that this company would EVERYTHING in order and have a fabulous “culture”. Uh…not really. To radically reduce the length of my story, ULTIMATELY it did morph into the dream job I wanted to to be. Actually, more accurately, I eventually learned how to maneuver through the idiocy and the idiots within the company. Likely, if you give yourself time and trust you own capabilities, you too will learn how to make things work there. At the job I speak of I adopted a saying that gave me much comfort and inserted some humor into the trying times & issues I had: “This too shall pass.” And hey, after you allow sufficient time to learn and apply, if it still sucks, get the hell out and find another gig. That too is tough, but it’s better than suffering every day you get out of bed for a crap job/company. Patience, persistence and judgement – I’m sure you have those characteristics. Be yourself and you’ll be fine.September 8, 2013 at 12:16 am #41863
thank you Lyn for your reply. I keep getting migraines and that really doesn’t help my situation either. and the migraines might be “change of life” related as well. hard to say. could be a combination. my thoughts were very jumbled in my first post above as I was on the tail end of a week long bout of migraines…..sometimes I think I am just too old to work any more! hoping to retire in about 7 years. we’ll see…..
the other thing is: there is no perfect job. I know this after having worked for over 30 years and after having many different jobs. This one is just okay. I have many improvement ideas and one big one that I hit a snag with then had to put aside for the next round of monthly reports started again. and I have one more week at the end of September where I can hopefully wrap that up. I need to just take one day at a time, do the best I can and try really hard not to stress myself out.
okay, won’t go on and on. thanks again for your kind reply and advice.September 8, 2013 at 12:46 am #41865
I don’t have as much work experience as you do, but I’d like to say one thing. Give yourself some time , let that “you” come out and shine. And believe me, things look like they are going haywire, there may be no energy, you feel like quitting, but I’m sure, when the time comes for you to retire, you’ll know it. Till then, believe in yourself and yes, no analysis paralysis . Too much of thinking can serve no purpose. Live in the present, be happy and you’ll be just fine.
AshwinSeptember 8, 2013 at 8:28 pm #41895
Hi Ashwin. thank you for your reply. yes, living in the present is something new for me and something I am definitely striving to do!! so thanks for that reminder. and yes, I do need to give it a bit more time. it’s only been just over 5 months and without all the proper tools, well, that made it a bit more difficult. Friday went very well and my one big report is looking pretty good!! (I screwed it up last month and was scrambling to correct it….) Plus, I got some good news in that the reporting deadline will NOT be moved up!!! that was weighing heavy on my mind so things are already looking up! whee!!!
on the subject of retiring….my body and mind are already starting to “break down”. I have a couple of physical issues and one started bothering me today. I did some exercises so hoping it doesn’t bother me this week. I would love to retire now, alas, gotta keep chugging along until we build up the funds. I can definitely feel the difference now as opposed to when I was 25 or 35…..
okay, enough out of me for now. thanks again for your kind and wise reply. appreciate it greatly!!