Ya, MD it is. Though technically speaking, people do get married while doing postgrad so crossing undergrad is all that’s really vital. Because in our field a job is pretty much guaranteed after joining postgrad.

Regarding my anger, I did try to be assertive. But almost always they get on my nerves and my self-restraint cracks. Also, even if I manage to be assertive to them, I am just sick of this voice in my head I mentioned. Which tries to prod me to reply rudely to Jerry. If only that voice is eliminated, almost definitely I’ll be able to control my anger.

Your suggestion about talking to her dad has made me much thoughtful. I can see the logic and clear rationale behind it and I agree that in the ideal situation, it would surely work for the good of both of us. Unfortunately, there are a whole lot of factors in reality that serve as obstacles currently.

1. My sinking career. Nobody would ever even consider taking the words of someone in my condition seriously. This makes me all the more upset at my family because much of it is their fault, and mine too. 🙁
2. I really don’t know much about her dad at this point. Though from what little I know he’s definitely a very decent and good person, it’s not sufficient. She made it clear that she does not want them to find out about our relation. If I tell him, she could feel betrayed. What if after going home, he gets angry on her for keeping contact with me in secret and all kinds of chaos follows?
3. I don’t feel he’ll empathize with me if I reveal about the fights we had. Because those fights are seriously ugly. He’d only be indignant about me, a stranger from the Internet, ill-treating his daughter like this. I can imagine him telling me to stay away from her or they’ll call the police if they find me talking to her again.
4. I will have to go to her city to meet him and all, which is currently impossible for me as I’m dependent on parents for everything. For all I know, he might already have planned to get her married to some family friend’s son or whatever. I just have no idea. In such a case if I go forth, it’ll be futile. Maybe I should know the situation first, then think accordingly. I really am not sure.

This doesn’t mean I’m not considering your idea. It is practical in the right circumstances and I’m really grateful for it, Anita. Just that these above points and possibly many more, need to be taken into account too. And as I keep stressing, she’s currently not talking to me at all and it’s unsure what’ll happen. At present at least, contacting her father is impossible for me. Praying that these dark times are resolved and I am on good terms with Jerry again, this is something that might be considered much later. But even then, my career issue is critical. That’s what everybody looks at in India and elsewhere. And currently, due to my depression, I’m not motivated to study at all.