Dear Anita,

Thank you for your insights… Those are great.. But.. for your question, about my parents brutal love??? Yes, it was Love, at least that’s what I feel, because like every parent, with only a single and first male child in the family, they always wanted the best for me and was trying to bring out the best in me.. but completely in a dominating way.. every time….So, I’m not sure, how to see the Real him.. because, i can’t imagine or vizualise anything about him, except him being like a commander giving orders and me, like a soldier, ready to obey and carry out those orders.. even today…I will try practising saying no to him, if I really feel, I shouldn’t be doing it, just for the sake of obeying him, either out of love or out of fear, that, he will not be happy about me, in doing so…

Also, I’m opening up and sharing all these, because, right now, I’m going through a very hard time with a confusing relationship with a woman, whom I love so much, that I cant imagine any single day passing by without her or her thoughts…I can’t really say, its an abusive relationship, but, I can very much feel, it’s a manipulative relationship… More to come….