Hi Anita,
you are yet again correct on saying that it is coming from the past. The main belief I have at that time is, I am a bad person – and at that time now I started questioning myself and trying to find evidence on why i should not be thinking this way – it is very difficult.

I feel so relieved talking openly about it and not feel ashamed..

I am trying to change my mind to stay positive , it’s VERY difficult ..

anyhow, i have cancelled my appt with my therapist for this week so I can relax for the next few days..

Thank you so much Anita-
-S