I’m sorry that I’m back. New emotions keep rising or previously felt ones keep circling.

This morning I am feeling:
I should give him one more chance. I love him.
I’m so disappointed to be alone. Even though he lives far off, I had someone to share things with who loves me. The day to day texts and phone call catch up’s are so missed.
I am consciously reaching out to my family when I’m feeling struggle and they are being supportive. I’m afraid if I hold any of this in, I will try to contact him. I’m also worried my family will get tired of listening to my whining.

I am feeling a lot of sadness today. And I cannot eat anything.