Dear lada:

It is good, so good to get this special message from you: to read that you are finally feeling better. Still dead and empty inside, but somehow better, good enough to ask for a promotion requiring more thinking and contact with people; planning on an au pair job abroad (away from home, I like that!), applied for yet another job, took an entrance exams and continuing your studies: these are all good news!

Regarding your mother, oh, lada: please don’t expect anything much from her but the same-old same-old. I wish too that you had a comforting mother who saw who you are, who knew you, but this, unfortunately, is not your mother. Neither was it mine. And so, the attention and care that you need will not come from her. You will find another person, someone you don’t know yet, to ask you real questions, to get to know who you really are, to … care to know who you are, what you think, what you feel.

I can hardly wait for this to happen! And it will…

So glad you are getting back to life, what a relief!

As far as I am- getting over a sickness. Looking forward to sleep, so tired.

Till your next post, take good care of lovely lada.

anita