Last night he messaged me that he wanted to get his things and then it turned into a three hour back and forth messaging . at the end of the message he said he had to break up with me which i thought was already a given – this happened until three in the morning – i just met him a trader joes to give him back the broken phone his title to his car and a hat that i took . he gave me back my things i asked where my sunglasses were and he said everything is in there and i gave him his things and he just walked away and i got back in my car and drove away with one last look at each other .
i cried then i was mad that he would just let me go so easily it made me feel like i never meant anything to him but i dont know that – then i just got angry and then my car started overheating and i didnt even know if i would make it back with out my car breaking down . !! HA ! what a day and of course its raining . I just want to leave Utah now I came here to ski I met him and I stayed for him .
Yes I am so lonely and im REALLY scared …. the biggest slap in the face is that my actions got me here … but i talked to a friend yesterday and she just reminded me that I am blessed I think I am just in pain right now – im sad i hurt him and im sad i let myself down .