@anita

Thank you so much. I cried happy tears reading your post. I can get better. You are right, I wasn’t born this way. My therapist has also mentioned the possibility of a group home in the meantime, if I can not afford living on my own just yet, or my father is unwilling to pay for me living on my own. Then, once I get a job and earn more money, enough to start on and live on my own, I will do that. I want to live my life the way I want to, and not feel bad about it.

I’ve already sent my therapist an email (she is confidential and I trust her- she has helped a lot these couple of years), and I will speak to her tuesday about my mother, and what can be done so I am away from her. Even for now, if I can’t move away just yet, getting out of the house more so I am not suffocating in despair.
Maybe I will try yoga again.

Thank you so much, I really appreciate it.