Thank you,both of you. It really helps to have people listen and be kind. I can’t tell you how much I need that. Truth is, I don’t want to love him at all anymore. I’ve waited so long for my father to love me, and now finally realised that it will not happen. It took moving out of my house to do that. I don’t want to care for someone more than they care for me. I can’t help feeling that I will always be devalued.

I feel like I have something to be grateful for, now that I have joined this community. I don’t just want to vent, I want to listen to people in their own pain and make them feel like they are not alone. I have a hard time feeling that with my friends.