Dear Sann:

You know how many posts I submitted here, in tiny Buddha? Many thousands, for over a year. And there is no way to delete them. And I have been using my real, legal first name the whole time. I repeatedly shared in what state and what area of the state I am living. I stated where I was born and where I lived since. And all the details I shared about my life are factually correct.

So when I ask you, Sann, to stay here and to continue to share truthfully, I am suggesting it with integrity: I am doing it and have been doing it since the beginning.

My fear, a power so overwhelming and which took away so much from my fifty five years, is not about what will happen. It is all about what already happened. And so, I believe, is your fear. It already happened, the little girl Sann, all innocent, loving, dependent was already born to a dangerous mother and no parental support. It already happened and you are paying the consequences.

If I take our communication to my private email address, well then I am accommodating a distorted thinking, that the danger is yet to happen in the future. The correct thinking, congruent with reality is that the danger already happened. When you realize it more and more, the fear does move toward the past and the present is more clear of it.

Let’s continue here. It takes courage, but, Sann, what have you got to lose being here? Show yourself to the world, to whomever is reading this. For as long as I am here and you are writing to me, you are safe with me. And I do not tolerate abuse on this site.

What do you have to lose? Dare to be you, your thoughts, feelings, fears, all… let it be here, state it. I believe it is the right way to go.

But then, of course, it is your choice, always your choice.

anita