Anita, thanks for reading my post and sharing your thoughts!

I think you’re right to some degree, he is definitely internally angry and had always been very pessimistic. He probably did subconsciously hurt me to extort his power that he had over me, I think he secretly likes to be in control and have the ability to hurt somebody. Like you say, his exterior was nice but deep down I have no idea what his true intentions were, despite him saying “he never wanted to hurt anyone” – I don’t think I will ever really know him, or anyone for that matter!

I don’t know, maybe he did really love me and never did have bad intentions, but then why would he cheat? I’m trying not to dwell on feeling sad – I feel like anger will help pull me through, but I don’t want that to be the course of my own self destruction at the same time…

Thanks again 🙂

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