Thank you very much Anita for your patience.

I’ve been denying myself that feeling of wanting to be with him, because I’m scared that the moment I actually do want to be with him, I’ll get demanding and wanting to go on dates, and see him more. When he has no time right now what so ever, his work is so busy and personal life is hectic. I just don’t want to impose on him these feelings. That and we live quite far from each other and we both live with roommates, but I will be moving out in February to get a place of my own. He was rather happy about that, and said he would come over almost every night.

But to answer all the above questions, no I don’t want to be friends with benefits, I want to be only his and him only mine.
Which is why I don’t want to date other people, I mean, I know there are great guys out there, and I might just be settling for something that might turn into absolute heartache.

I don’t want to change what we have though, because its nice and it really works well for the both of us. And I know he isn’t seeing or dating another girl, cause he usually would straightly tell me.

I guess I’m scared of losing him, because I don’t know where I stand. If it was clear that it was just friends with benefits, then okay, I can keep my feelings to myself and date other men without feeling guilty and actually would want to. But he’s also pulling me towards a relationship type of relations. So I’m torn, he could leave me at a moments notice but yet he still wants all the perks of a girlfriend.. And its eating away at me. My feelings for him and my fear of him leaving. It really really sucks.

Thank you Anita for your help. I have a feeling that I will have to talk to him about this. I am meeting him Saturday hopefully. I might want to talk to him then. I’m just scared of the result