I wanted to make our relationship work, despite the distance, the opposition from my parents, his attitude towards me in person. On FaceTime we always talk about articles on how to make relationships work unfortunately it was all purely theoretical in person. I used to just think that he had so much on his plate right now, an 8 yr old daughter, who lives in Florida making him travel and stay 2 weeks in Maine and 2 weeks in Florida. I was there and I saw the life he lived in both places. I saw how caring he was to his daughter and family. Whe I see that, I feel like an outside because he doesn’t include me.i don’t know probably because I always have this “fix it” attitude that I feel devastated when he said he doesn’t believe in fixing things. It was a cruel thing to say but I am trying to understand him. Maybe I hurt him too much to say those things, maybe he felt betrayed when I left him. How do you unlove and unmiss someone. I wish I could go back and did things differently.