I think I lied because I’m afraid of rejection. That is why I lied about it all. I thought that if I wasn’t interesting that she would drop me. It stems from me being so insecure. I tried pushing her away because I didn’t know how to deal with my feelings for her. I thought that if I told her the truth that she would reject me and end the friendship. I never once hinted that I liked her. I don’t think that she doesn’t want to contact me because she thinks that I like her. She thinks that I’m a horrible person because I lied. She probably thinks that everything that I confided in her is a lie. I don’t think she cares anymore. I’m just very upset over this whole thing. What makes it worse is that I caused all this to happen.