I think I internalized those comments and observations quite a bit. They sort of stayed on at the back of my mind and have spilled over in terms of confidence. I guess as a kid, it wasn’t possible to understand better anyway.

There is another area i realize I need to change once and for all – my weight. Again, I know its a relatively trivial thing but i understand that has had a significant negative impact on me as well – I feel uncomfortable in my skin, I have acne that never goes away, I dont feel very confident with people, my energy is low though i am good at pretending it doesnt bother me that much. But it does even now. I cant really change what i heard or saw when i was a kid. I cant change the bullying at school and so many things i cant undo. Many just weren’t in my hands but this is. I have made a lot of progress in the past couple of years in managing a number of issues but this is one i need to tackle.