thanks benzrabbit (wut kinda name is dat, by the way? lol!!!). i am writing a long letter to her to tell her my truth. how i really feel. cuz i can’t face her. i know she will tell me i am less than a man for not facing her, but she knows i have trouble talking about my feelings. i’ve told her so time and time again. i am actually a bit high on alcohol right now, because even to write to her i am wanting for courage. it sucks.
thanks for the tip. i am going to buy the book. i have known about highly sensitive people for a long time, but i never thought it applied to me. i took the test and actually unchecked the questions i was not so sure of and i still passed. i hate loud noise. i remember one day i was with my wife in the car and she was playing loud music, i said if she could turn it down because it bothered me and she said i was so gay. sometimes i wish i were gay, maybe my life would be easier. i actually admire gay people because they have the courage to go against the world and be themselves. maybe i need that. to be myself. only thing is i do not really know who i am. but then u suggested that i might be a highly sensitive person. it might fit. i have to investigate more in-depth to be sure. i don’t want a label or excuse, but i need to know why i am like this. my wife says it is all in my head. my doctor says it is all in my head. these are people i am supposed to trust. i feel they down play my situation.