i agree that self-books don’t really help much, they are a bit cut and dry and not much honest down-to-earth sharing. i was looking at a book called “phobias, fears and anxiety’s and how to deal with them.” society tends to classify every abnormal thing as a disease and a treatment when they should also focus on the whole person and the other factors such as diet, environmental factors (stress from family, financial, emotional) and mental and look to heal the patient not just cure them. these threads are quite helpful b/c people can be quite open, post their experiences and seek great advice from people like you:) after a few days of ignoring each other since we were both stressed and busy with our schedules, my special friend and i were worried that our friendship was falling apart. yet today, when i came into school and he saw me near my locker, we smiled at each other. we shared a song we’d both been listening to called “Anywhere” by Stroke 9 and we were both smiling and laughing as we heard the song. while we were listening to the song and smiling, the was a bright golden light surrounding both of us and we both felt angel wings brushing us. it turned out to be archangel uriel, the angel of divine being, health and connection. my special friend’s blue yes seemed to sparkle like the blue sky as the angel uriel was telling us “don’t worry i am here to guide you through your life. forget about the insecurities and trust in the divine.” my special friend had the most radiant smile on his face after the angel’s light dissipated. anyway, during 3A lunch my special friend was sitting alone at a table and he was smiling at me, but i didn’t quite notice b/c i was comforting my friend francine about her school work and debating with benton (computer science friend) about biology. anyway, my special friend must have seen i was a bit stressed, so he came over with some of his friends and he started telling them what a smart and great person i was. this made me smile and i laughed which made his eyes twinkle more. later during last block java when i felt that the computer wasn’t working and i was stressed, my special friend came over to me and told me it was okay. he said that he cared about me and i didn’t have to worry. i told him that any time i felt like i was going to crash (like it says in the song), i’m aware that there is something protecting and saving me. my special friend laughed and said he’ll always be here if i need him. he then told me that “anytime he can’t say what’s on his mind, he goes back to the good memories we had and the remembrance of them is enough even if we are silent.” here is the song that my special friend and i both like:

STROKE 9 LYRICS
“Anywhere”

Everyday something new comes my way
And helps me get through the past
Anyway, I can’t say how long I’ve been away
But I feel at home at last
I’m aware there’s something around me
Saving me, protecting me
That won’t let me crash
Everyday something new comes my way
And I feel at home at last

Anywhere is everywhere and I don’t care
As long as I can feel this is real I’m not scared to let you in
Everywhere is far from there and I don’t care as long as this is real
When you’re gone then I won’t feel this good again.

Anytime I can’t say what’s on my mind
And remember how good things have been
I relax and reattach to the past
And we feel like one again
It erases all the care in our way
And we feel like one again

Feel this good again

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