Dear jaxie:

It reads to me like you need help regarding how to help depressed and suicidal young people. On your own, you got trapped in your own efforts and things got complicated. Maybe you can talk to your school counselor or other community agencies about how you can get involved in helping depressed/ suicidal young people. It may be in the context of a group activity after school. It can be in the context of a suicide hotline.

Basically you can volunteer under the guidelines and supervision of a professional group.

anita