Hi everyone!

Thank you everyone for posting your stories and I hope each of you were able to overcome with your issues. It’s so refreshing to know that I am not the only one who is going through this since I was starting to think I was being too dramatic, even though I try to talk about this the least possible w my friends cuz I don’t want to tired them w this.
This is my situation. I was on a long distance relationship for 8 months with this guy who is 8 yrs younger than me, he’s 26 and I’m 34. When we met, he thought I was 25. He didn’t ask me that that day but the next time we texted. He didn’t care about my age and kept communicating literally every single day through text msgs since the second day after we met. We live 4 hrs away from each other. We met up for the second time after a month of meeting and texting (Oh, I forgot to mention we met in FL when we both were on vacay). Obviously it went great and after that everything went well. He is the most caring, sweet and honest person I know. He would say good morning and good nite to me every single day and we would talk so much throughout the day about our days. Of course there was more talking at the beggining of the relationship bc that’s usually what happens when you are getting to know someone. There was great chemistry between us and I grew so attached to him even though I didn’t take him seriously at the beggining bc of the age diff and bc he lives in another state. At the end he won my heart. At times I would ignore him for no real reason and he would still text me good morning even though he knew I woke up two hours ago (he know what time I wake up for work) and would always make sure he said good nite to me. Two weeks before I tried to break up w him bc of the distance and the lack of physical contact was taking a toll on me and he basically begged me not to and reassured me he cares so much about me and he knows it’s hard being 4 hours apart. I felt like a b*** for what I said, I apologized and blah blah blah Two weeks after that I broke up w him again bc when I woke up I already found a text from him w good morning and a pic of him in bed, I responded to him after 30 min of seeing the text and he inmediately said he was gonna go back to sleep. Something in me told me that wasn’t true bc he never says that to me, he always keep the conversation going. I checked his snapchat score and while “he was sleeping” his score kept going up, until it went up 4 points (that means he was sending/receiving pictures. I got so mad bc what kind of pictures a guy could be sending in the morning, on a weekend when he is alone in bed. So I confronted him and he lied to me saying he was just looking at people’s stories ehich could be true but the score doesn’t go up for looking at people’s stories the, he added “Oh i see what you are saying.” I didn’t answer bc I coudn’t believe what I was suspecting it was actually true! The he texted again “you don’t want to see me anymore? Is that what you are trying to say.” He always thought I liked him less than what he liked me. I didn’t answer bc I didn’t want to say something I was regret later but thought he was gonna beg me like the last time again, only thing this time he didn’t. In fact, he didn’t contact me for the whole day until after I texted him in the middle of the night telling him what I thought (that he was exchanging innapropriate pics w someone else) and that I wasn’t good at long distance relationship so we should end this and I wish him good luck. He inmediately replied to me saying “isn’t it better than actually having sex w someone else?” My eyed were literally opened like the emoji w the eyes opened in surprised! He also said that he truly cares about me and he loves talking and being with me. He wishes me good luck and that he hope he can stay friends. WTH! After what he confessed to me he was expecting me to stay friends w him??!! By then I was furious and told him no, we can’s stay friends so he said that I was looking for a reason to get rid of him which is not true, he just felt that way. We argued for a bit and never told me who he was exchanging pictures with. He told me he was deeply hurt for the mean things I said to him cuz he really cares about me (how can I not be mad after what he has confessed to me and he didn’t want to tell me who he was exchanging pics with). He ended really bad and the next day it was the worst day of my life, I felt so bad and I missed him so much, I missed our conversations and his company even through the phone. So Monday morning I couldn’t bear it anymore and I texted him so early in the morning (I couldn’t sleep much) I told him that I hate missing him to what he responded inmediately again saying I am sorry and that he never wanted to hurt me, that he was not seeing anyone (he was having online affairs ://) but he has “needs” and respct too much that’s why he can’t lie to me. Not sure if to believe that last part. He already lied to me, he was gonna keep up w the lie hadn’t I caught him. Anyway, he said he loves everything about me again and I said, just bc I didn’t want to look desperate, if we should just stop w this bc he’s right he said long distance relationships are hard to what he answered “idk, like completely stop talking? I’d like to stay friends.” So we agreed to stay friends even though I don’t know what I was saying/doing at the moment bc I still felt so hurt and everythig was so fresh. He had to go to work and me too so we ended the conversation saying how bad we felt the day before and how much we missed each other. I wasn’t expecting his tect after getting put of work anymore since we stayed friends, whatever that is at that point, but he texted me and I was surprised, but at one pint he said that it seems we have something serious to talk about. I had no idea what else he wanted to say since we already talked in the morning, so before he said anything I said “we already said this morning that we are gonna be friends” to what he agreed and said that LDR are hard and blah blah blah He wanted to stay friends and I said no bc I like him and I can’t be friends w someone I like or at least need a little bit of time to get over him. I said goodbye and he says “don’t say goodbye, this a ttyl or see ya. Then I said I will delete his number and he asked me not to bc we said we will keep in touch. I explained to him that the reason I wanted to do that was bc I didn’t want to have any temptation of texting him, and he said what if he loses his phone bc is not backed up (that was a lil funny) so I said write down somewhere and contact me in december again when I will hopefully feel better after this breakup. We both said i will miss you and those stuff and never talked agter that anymore. It’s been 12 days! It’s not december yet though. What do you guys think? Did I rush w my decision of breaking up w him? AAAAhhh he was suppossed to visit me this weekend (He also said if I still wanted him to come, to which I said no bc that was gonna be hard for me). Also, if he wanted to still be w me he wouldn’t have said we have something serious to talk about and then kinda break up w me for the second time even though I just assumed he was gonna say that. I really don’t have negatives experiences w him except that one thing he was doing online which I really don’t care that much and I even understand that. This thanksgiving holiday I’ll be visiting his state and I don’t know if I should contact him or not, I feel that I have to see him again, I feel that not everyhthing is over between us and that our decision was based on an incdent that could’ve been solved by commucnication. Or, should I just wait and see if he contacts me in December? Sorry, for such a long post but I wanted to tell the details so ou have a better understanding of the situation. Thank you and best of luck to everybody who is going through a rough patch w their SO.