First of all, I’m so sorry to hear about your hard past, I know i don’t understand what it’s like in your situation but I understand pain and for that I can connect with you.

I have struggled with tenacious anxiety and depression after my brothers passing this past year, and I have learned a few things that have helped me through the darkest thoughts and the craziest panic episodes that I’d love to share with you.

During a particularly sad moment, as hard as it might seem, try to list a couple of things that are going well. ie: your hair is looking awesome today, the weather is beautiful or maybe someone helped you with something today. It sounds so cheesy but it really helps me, because once I start, all of the small things I can find, out-shadows the sad thoughts that lurk around.

On the note of anxiety, I can say that the most influencial thing for me in the most panicking times is to just talk yourself through the moment instead of sitting through the thoughts. I like to say “look around you, there’s nothing hurting you, you’re alive, and things are okay.” as a mantra.

I hope that these little things can help a little bit, I know i don’t have all the answers and solutions, but this is my best I can give to you. remember that you can get through this and the toughest battles are given to the strongest people. 🙂

lots of love! <3