Dear Anita,

So Friday, I was playing badminton during gym on Friday and I had lots of fun. My special friend and I were both cheering each other on, he was on the court next to me on a different team, but we were both having fun. I know I’m going to miss him when college comes around, but I have a feeling he is also going to community college so we might see each other. During gym when I accidentally crashed into the net and my special friend fell a while later, we both looked at each other with concern and there was fifteen minutes when we were both missing the shuttlecock and our other team mates were yelling at us to get back in the game, but we both stared at each other with a look of concern and happiness to see the other enjoy themselves that it was hard for both of us to pull away. When I pulled away to get back into the game, he was still smiling at me and I had a few glances at me. It was during that time when I realized it didn’t matter whether I was athletic, smart or whatever he would always love me for who I was and I would do the same. There is a stanza in Christina Aguilera in the song “What A Girl Wants” and it goes like this:

“There was a time I was blind, I was so confused
Run away just to hide it all from you.
But baby, you knew me better than I knew myself
They say if you love something let it go
If it comes back it’s yours
That’s how you know
It’s for keeps, yeah, it’s for sure ”

It reminds me of what happened after gym when my special asked me about how my inner bully was. I replied that the inner bully sometimes made me confused and there were times when I wanted to run and hide it from him. But he said something so sweet, it almost made me cry “I don’t see a perfect person. I see a flawed person still worth loving. The inner bully only sees the side of you that is broken because it can’t see anything else. What I see in you is a person that is whole and full of potential. I see the flaws in you, but they make you special. No inner bully can control the person you are.”

Also I’m glad we’re not in a physical relationship, we let each other go in junior year of high school, but he keeps coming back and I keep coming back to him and it’s the most spiritual relationship I’ve ever had. I realize he makes me whole spiritually and makes me truly believe in myself. I know we’ll be off to college in a while, but I wonder if I’ll still see him. In the meantime, I want to tell and show him how much he means to me. I want to give him something special, but I’m not sure what. I keep hoping that I will do well in school, get a great job and find some money to buy him something he truly wants. He really saved my life. Do you have any ideas? Thanks!