I always felt unsafe as a child, my father came off as an abusive bully in an attempt to make me tougher. I was an outcast in school so acceptance was something i didn’t really feel until high school. Relationship wise ive been in more than a few, but the few times i thought i felt something really strong and pursued someone it normally ended in heartbreak. Ive always felt like i was never good enough, like i didn’t deserve to be happy. Unhappiness and anxiety were always with me. Even now a part of me is worried about talking too much about my relationship, that somehow talking about how amazing and happy i feel will somehow jinx my relationship