Hi Anita,

I know i cant stop obsessing over things but in this case it simply feels like….something has been wrenched out of my hands..my dream of a future, a woman came and placed herself physically in between me and my ex, because she knew if she moved in quickly that should work. And my ex, well..instead of communicating his unhappiness with me he just looked elsewhere and was easily led by fun because that is his motivation.  I feel like i failed because i wasnt smart, i didnt pay attention, i didnt do the right things, i wasnt good enough. It was ME who had to be stronger.

The starsigns have been rather accurate…in the positive sense, they have saying i have to let go and move on. that i have suffered too much. Its all very rational.

I know im not the only one, people i know have had similar experiences and worse, men they loved who let them down. I feel resigned to that fact for my future. I guess my ex decided he didnt cheat on me because we had broken up already.. he had met her, but then wanted to start something with me again and was very frugal with the truth, leading me along so i had hope. When it came down to choosing between us, he chose her…surely that is me losing in life. I just get run over by everyone, its like i am holding the door open for everyone else to be happy.