The first is a given because of were we left it off that us both agreed to be only friends. I wanted to tell her how I felt, since she is a huge part of my life and was wanting to be in my life. She was the one that made the effort to stay in touch with me, she was always there for me even though I avoided people due to my heart break last year. She had every right to know of my unresolved feelings for her, I just didnt expect her reply telling me we could have a future together. Giving me that hope made me feel like she was telling me because she didn’t want to let me down. But she told me many times whenever I asked (I was afraid she was leading me on just like my ex friend did) she was being honest with her words and will never hurt me.
She truly deeply cares for me yet is unsure how we are together in person. We could be great friends and develop a sisterly bond or we could develop a romantic bond. Who knows.
Like I said before, if she wants more she’ll need to tell me. The ball is in her court now.
All i am doing for myself is to stay focus on my life here, I’ll always have that love for her and will cherish it even if I met someone else.
At this moment of my life I have no desire to seek for love, I am keeping myself open for the possibility with anyone. But I know what I need to do is meet her, my love for her is strong and I want to know what is going on between us in person. I’m not expecting anything from her, only her honesty and friendship. I’m just going to be me and spend time with the woman I dearly love romantically and friendship.