Dear Simone,

Thank you for recognizing such beautiful things in me through my experience.

There are so many times I’ve heard that you must first take care of yourself, love yourself, and I am sure of that, it is true, but I can help to think on the person I am sharing my life with, either is Carlos or not. Probably it is also because I have no relationship with my mother or father, no brothers or sisters, I do not want to be pessimistic, but I have no one else, and afterall it is not what you have in life, or how much money you make, if you do not have who to share it with.

Thank God I have Noah with me, and one thing I am sure of, I have to be happy in order to be a good mother for him, and he wants me happy for sure. Right now I feel calm, I am just waiting, as I said sometimes the best reaction is no reaction at all, and I will wait for Carlos to come back on Sunday and I will listen if he has something to say, things must change, a lot of things, we have to go back to basics, and have agreements that can make us both happy. If not, then we are over. For sure. I am not settling for less, not again.