Dear Littlered:

There is no doubt that the words articulated, and the message in them, were very offensive, disrespectful, abusive, vulgar.

The thing is, you weren’t sure until you wrote the last post that indeed they were vulgar. I know you weren’t sure because you wrote: “it felt like someone agreed that what they said was unacceptable…all agree that those comments were indeed vulgar”. You needed others to agree because you weren’t sure.

You wrote in your last post: “”I always wondered what did I do to deserve this”- You believed you deserved it, and that would have made those words… true.

You continued: “I got my answer- Nothing. I am not and never was responsible for their behaviour. And that sets me free.”

I hope you are free from the hold these words of five years ago had on you for the last five years, but freedom from the core-belief that you are not worthy (the core belief that kept playing those words in your brain) doesn’t come this… easy. It doesn’t happen in a thread.

Pay attention to the many ways this core belief operates, as in you feeling guilty about borrowing a stapler at work (something you shared in a previous thread). Continue your healing from this core belief and post anytime.

anita