I feel so awful. I am so sorry. So sorry.

I do not even have the rights to be depressed when I drive the person that I loved the most in this world to a depression.

I am not even human, I closed my eyes to the truth and reality because I cannot take the pain, it was a cowardice act.

I am such an awful person, my ex boyfriend is alone suffering while I live in a fairytale world that I made by myself to protect myself.

Even to the very end, I am very selfish.