Dear Anita,

I can understand about what you are talking , i have realised that by myself also .. but the thing is more that i changed , from being quick tempered , i stop with arguing , i even forgive a lot of things because living with anger is self destruction. But it seems to be that actually even if forgive , even if i try to stay ‘blind’ new situations just uncover old ones . Like i haven’t forgive it . It’s strange . Describe it like this , when i was getting my anger out even trough making stupidities i was grounded .. now when i’m trying to swallow all that happened and is happening , to not make troubles i’m actually stuck with anxiety , in self doubt … I changed so much time that i lost myself somewhere around , and actually be changing everything stayed same bsc it’s about me … as i said , i make things bad for myself bcs everybody around me made it , so i wanted to get attention on that way and at the end i just saw that everything i did is hurting myself . I’m not person who get fuel from being anger , i can’t hate i’m deeply sad watching my loved family doing unnecessary harms to themselves and others …