I contacted my director. And we are speaking tomorrow. One of my mentors invited me over to her house tonight. Very nice of her.

I cannot help but think about telling my father. I feel worried about money. If I tell them, it will be a horrible disaster. I don’t have to explain this. You know. But maybe I should just tell them. For my own selfish reason. So I can stay economically secure during this time. In order for me to do that – I have to accept their influence. And I also will have to ignore their statements. They will say “well this happened to you because you moved and you’re all alone there. This wouldn’t have happened if you stayed”

when I was suicidal last year before moving away , they kept saying I was we because I lived in my own apartment etc. they then stated how it’s a horrible idea for me to move away because I will be worse and alone

it’s interesting. They are the cause of this  and I want to reach out to the cause for help