I was highly intensely emotional in my written tone. I suggested taking care of someone more than oneself which was wrong. I am rephrasing the words. I did not realise my fault. Afterwards I did. I know self love is important. Now, I try to be mindful when thinking and speaking. I realise the beliefs i built up over 15 years was a result of my upbringing. This incident shattered my ego. I understand that forgiveness is important but letting go of guilt, trying to heal, being cheerful, self love are equally important.