Thankyou for your insight Anita. I read it yesterday and it brought up such feelings that i didn’t dare read it again that day in case it all seemed to real, although the words went round in my head.

I agree with what you said. He is lovely at times but also mean at times but I do think he is a good genuine person. It’s like i dont always see the bad side or just explain it away. It’s like what you said on the other posts about looking at and accepting reality and i feel like i find that very tough.

Thank you again for your insights. Really useful to have an independent and neutral perspective.