Dear Anita

When she would not be here for the rest of my life.. I sometimes think about it. I wonder if I would ever miss her. I think not. Sometimes when we don’t see each other long time she calls me, likes to talk to me. I no longer do. I know she few times cut contact with her own mother and suffered because of that, and I never wanted this. I never wanted to cut contact and hate each other, but also when I looked at her, her being over 60, and missing and suffering because of an argument with her mother, being so dependent on her mother, waiting for her to call… I don’t want to be that either. I think it’s pathetic. Like a child who needs her mother approval, or her mother’s hug because she can’t go on with her life when her mother is angry with her. From those two options I would choose cutting contact even if it means hating each other, as it probably would.

Regarding your mother you mentioned only that to fix your relationship (theoretically) it would require her willing to self improve, so I assumed either she wouldn’t want to, or you never tried. Sorry, just my assumptions.

I wonder what else you learned through my posts. If there was anything, I’m happy I could show you this somehow.