Dear Anita,

Yes, he was the same man in my previous post. He had gone through his treatment and free of cancer at the moment. He has energy and time to do gardening, decorating his home and hang out with friends. But he told me he wanted to text but don’t know what to say. He told me I am still very very special to him and has a lot of love for me. My gut didn’t feel right, I feel very conflicted that his action didn’t reflect what he said. I thought I was asking for too much. But he clearly didn’t care to be friends with me.

I know I have to accept that we can’t be friends. I feel bad because I was being told since young I have to be nice to everyone. I feel bad because I can’t be friends with the person I once loved. But I also start to feel the freedom being able to let go of him. Just that the bad feeling still kick in sometime.

Amanda