Hey Emma,

Sorry to hear you are in so much pain right now and there is so much struggling. 🙁   It does sound like you had a really hard day yesterday.  That was very kind and thoughtful of you to call up the manager of the coffee shop to apologize.  It shows how thoughtful and polite you are with other people even when you are really having a hard time.  Sometimes emotions feel like too much to handle and we blow up at people; don’t be too hard on yourself.   I’ve done it before too.

Maybe you’re right about not focusing on retelling your story right now– that’s totally OK.  Maybe it’s best right now to focus small things that you can control– taking time to take photographs, taking walks, looking for birds.   Do you have a pet?   Taking daily showers, dressing comfortably, eating healthy foods if/when you can.  Any small thing to get you through the day.  Sometimes that’s what it takes.  I know you’re in so much pain right now and I really I wish I could make it better for you– I’m so proud of you for sticking through this and fighting for yourself even when it’s hard!!

Amy