I’ve been following this thread for awhile and just wanted to say … I sincerely hope you have informed your current girlfriend about all this (or have broken up with her in order to pursue your ex, which you are with the invite to go to the dunes). There’s been so much drama involved in this already that I don’t feel it would be fair to drag her into this as well. She is an innocent bystander in your pursuit of fancy. You owe her that much. Don’t treat her as a safety net.

I talked to my current GF (or whatever she is now) last weekend.  She told me ” why do i always fall in love with a guy that is in love with someone else?”  I guess her last BF left her after 6 months and went back to his ex-wife.  GREAT!   I really feel like a POS now.  And i feel even worse for her.  I didn’t plan this I swear!  If i would of known my ex would of started talking again, i would of never gotten involved.

She did tell me she’s not mad.  She knows i didn’t do this intentionally and that I do have feelings for her.  She also said that the heart and the brain are two different things, and as much as my brain wants to be with her and all the sense it makes, the heart wants what the heart wants…  And that I need to ask my ex what’s up and if she will consider us again.  She said maybe i need to hear her say NO to really get the closure i need from her to move on and be able to love someone else like i should.

My current (?? she is,)  is really a good woman with a huge heart.  God, just wish i wasn’t hung up on my ex so bad, and also that my current (?? she is) didn’t drink as much as she did and had a little more control over her children…  but thats another issue..

I am going to contact my ex tomorrow and find out about riding.  I’m going to leave the day and time up to her.  try to make it so i’m not pushing and am totally flexible with what she wants.  Try not to plan as much as possible.  We will see, but like i said.  I’m thinking she will cancel.  this is really hard to do .  I guess if she does cancel, then i will ask her about us this weekend sometime.  Maybe i  will try calling her.  I don’t think she would answer that either though.

I need a definite yes or no though, so i can move on or try to.  I will always miss her and love her no matter.  I know that in my heart.  Something said about feeling connected to someone on a deep level i guess.  It was like i new her thoughts (well before everything went to shit.  LOL)