Hi Anita,

Enjoyed reading about you & very interesting…I see you enjoy nature and wildlife…

I got home a bit ago after lunch w/my new friend.  We took a drive to the mountains after & it was nice until we passed a car like the one my ex drives and a mixture of emotional feelings came rushing in.  My friend asked if I was ok, so I knew then I needed to go home.  It was all I could do was get into the house & I started crying.  I feel so sad and angry at the same time.  All the questions and bad feelings rushed in.  I am really angry at myself for letting these feelings consume me.  I don’t think I can sleep any more than I have been in the past few days.  It gives me some relief to let myself rest from these thoughts.  I felt like I was healing & all I did was go out and everything reminds me of my ex.  It sickens me to feel this way.

I am starting to get a little scared about being alone the rest of my life…I don’t want that.  I have so much to share with someone & would like to find someone to do it with…I want to travel and grow old with someone.

Bella~