Dear ME:

You gave up martial arts. Did you consider Tai Chi? When done with the right teacher, this slow-motion martial art form is incredible. I’ve done it for over a year. It was an amazing experience. It slows down the brain like nothing else, while awake anyway. It has a long history, takes a lot of mindfulness, develops mindfulness and what you need most, calm. If this calls you and the specialist doctors approve, this may work very well for you.

Regarding her having lost weight, you assume it is because of her suffering about the break up. Maybe it is, but maybe not. This is the problem when there is no honest communication, we assume.

I think that sending her the message is an excellent choice. Your motivation in sending it, to be true to yourself, I like that very much. It is a most important value in my mind and life. I noticed: you read my thoughts about her not being true/honest with you and you turned it to yourself: I need to be true. Excellent, this is how emotionally healthy, aware and good people think.

A man true to  himself, honest deserves a woman who is also these things. Question now, in my mind, is: does she deserve you? Will she respond, when will she respond if she does, will she attend to what you sent her or ignore it, be polite and well-wishing but ignore your thoughts, your feelings?

“I should not feel regret about being left ‘holding’ something broken by myself, because that would mean there is nothing left to ‘hold’ anymore”- said brilliantly, brilliant to me.

I am looking forward to your update, hoping to read it soon.

anita