Nana, I want to say to you. Bless you. You sound so confused and that war in your mind is knowing things are not right or there would be no war. You said you worried about messing up what could be a beautiful relationship. You won’t. If he loves you and you love him and it is meant for you to be together nothing can pull you apart.

I think the problem is that you didn’t take any time alone to deal with the betrayal he inflicted upon you.

If possible, try to not see him for a designated amount of time where you make no contact. Give yourself time. It will also let him know that you value yourself and you will not just take him back when he does this. He will respect you more.

He might jump into another relationship because it seems this is his MO but if he loves you he won’t. He will give you the time you need to end this war and decide what is best for you.