thank you so much Anita for your time .

i have one main Question regarding my current relationship.

why do i sometime feel as if i dont love my bf ?as i mentioned above its second time i am having this feeling ,just before some weeks i woke up one morning and i started to feel as if i dont love him .i was very upset and angry at myself that why i am feeling this thing.after 3-4 days i suddenly burst into tears and cried alot infront of him without any reason he hugged me alot and asked me whats wrong why am i crying like this ?because he knows that i never cry because of  small things or normally .even i dont be too much emotional .i was crying  just because i was sad i felt i am again suffering from Depression (which started in my previous abusive relationship ),i was crying because i was sad and was not feeling that love for him ..i was pretending to love him in those 3 days .

but after crying next day i became alright .and i stat´rted having that love feeling for him ..

now again the same i feel as if i dont love him ?i cant understand why …???

but one thing more there is one incident ,may be  my this feeling has anything to do with that …i will mention it below :

(before entering into relationship i made things clear that i have been in relationships and i dont want to bring my past into our relationship if never needed .and he was agreed and he said he doesnt care about my past )

recently he was using my laptop while i was at work and he went through my emails ,and then he sent me my ex picture to me and asked me that who is he ?and than he said sorry to ask me, because he knew he was my ex and we were nt gona discuss about him (as we made things clear that he has nothing to do with my past)

actually he read 1-2  old emails which i sent to my ex ..

i got very angry that why he went through my emails ,and he said he accidently saw that .

the second day i checked my email sent box i found that  he forwarded that email of mine to his own email address.i felt very awkward and i asked .we had an argument about it ..i said that is my personal thing how could u do that etc ..but at last he convinced and he promised me that he ll delete those ..

and later after week i found tht he dint only go thtough  my ex email but also my male friends .

and than i asked that too that why u checked other emails ..so his reply was :i got obsessed after reading those ur ex email thus i checked …

and i asked him to stay away frm my privacy and he agreed .

now my concern  is ,if all these feeling of not being in love has anything to do with such issues ?