Dear Chantel,

You asked

So if i know this why is it so hard to walk away from him. Why is the love i have for him and my want for him strong than my worth for myself?

The reason that you find it hard is probably due to all the good things that you see in this relationship. His loyalty for one, his statements about how he cares for you and likes you.

and how to get  to a place where i can let go with out feeling like im completely breaking

You need to ask yourself where you see this relationship is headed – for yourself and for your children. He has stated several times that he wants to be a father but he doesn’t want you to reverse the tubal ligation, he has also implied that he doesn’t want to be a father to your kids by his behaviors towards them.

Take care.

Hope you find resolution soon.