Dear Lisa:

I understand: Madonna spoke for you, she was your voice. It is a good thing there was one person in the whole wide world who was your voice. Without that voice, you would have had none. Or would you, I mean, you do have your own voice, now, don’t you, it is not identical to any other person’s, is it?

In your message before last you expressed your aversion to “manipulative bullies… (who) walk all over others with no pressure of accountability”, to “unfair system”, and to “playing a role”, the manipulative female role you referred to many times.

You expressed your desire to have your own home, your own space where you don’t have to answer to anyone and where “NO ONE can tell me I am not wanted”. You wrote: “I have never had my own home”. This means you never experienced having your own space where you don’t have to answer to anyone. And you never experienced living in a place where you were wanted.

Regarding your recent post: it is amazing to me as well, that the exchange of sex for material goods outside the straightforward prostitution business is encouraged by much of the entertainment business (TV series Dallas and Dynasty are two examples) as well as other businesses such as jewelry, chocolate, weddings, and many more.

It is painful to live being viewed “as lesser”, it brings about rage, doesn’t it. Has in my case. And it is so very lonely to not be wanted anywhere.

anita