Hi Cat

Extremely sorry about what you are feeling – I empathize with you. I also have trouble keeping people close and act out. If I understand the scenario accurately, seems like what happened is he is just shocked. I believe that subconsciously we have some intentions that inspire us to consciously do something and that is what you did. First and foremost, I don’t think you should blame yourself for any of this, your life is very complex right now and he knew what he was being a part of. Second thing, yes you want to get back to him but also think about if that is the best thing for you right now? Snail mail a letter to him or something, keep your “tabs” so as to speak on him so that when the moment is right and you both are ready you can take this positive step. In the mean time, you need to heal within for your and your daughter’s sake. You need to get better so that you know what is it that you want and how you want to help everyone here.

You are a beautiful person and never forget that. We do things sometimes just because time pressurizes us. Time has kept you guys together for so many years, time will heal it too and I am sure everything will fall in place.

Gigi