Anita, you are right, if I had that, it could have been the ideal thing for me except that it didn’t happen. I have been living on what ifs for so long that it’s just not productive for me to think like that. Reality is that I was all by myself then, and now my family won’t spontaneously combust into being great… I have to accept them as they are.

About the guides and all… yeah you might have a point there. The same is valid for people who repeat that “your guides just want what’s best for you”… maybe it’s just because they think that’s what their parents were doing for them…

But hey, how can I believe that Spirit Guides are good folks if they see my suffering and do absolutely nothing? I have been asking for a partner for LONG. And all I get are rejections, rejections, and more rejections, and no one to express interest in me…