Shelby,

Don’t be disappointed in yourself for taking medication for your anxiety. I find many people are so ignorant when it comes to matters of the mind just because you can’t see it. Anxiety is a very real thing and quite frankly if you let it beat you up for long periods of time it could have greater effects on your health! So be proud that you have taken a step towards managing that and helping yourself get through the agony!

You’re absolutely right, heartbreak is isolating, lonely, painful and draining to say the least. The issue is I don’t particularly like to be alone in times like these but I also don’t like to be around people. I feel as though I’m bringing a complete downer to everyone around me because I don’t have it in me to pretend that all is okay anymore so in that sense I’d rather just be on my own and let these feelings flow through me.

I’m having a particularly rough day today. I think  all of the feelings which I’ve locked away in a little box in the back of my mind are resurfacing and slowly eating away at me. If I’m honest it probably started a few days ago. I’m overthinking everything right now and feeling all sorts of pain. I’ve almost gone into a frenzy of reading and crazy research in the hope that I stumble across something that will help me get through this awful time in my life.

This whole thing has made me question how us human beings really go on to deal with traumatic events in our life because I can’t seem to move past mine! I feel lost and almost stuck in this misery for what seems like forever now and I question if I’ll ever really be able to move past it.

I really cannot wait to just be on the other end of all this and be able to say ‘I survived that, I can survive anything’

I hope you’re enjoying your weekend so far and thank you for taking the time out to respond to me!