I could have written this without the fact that I didnt go to college..  It is heartbreaking..  My mother died after I graduated high school. She was only 39.  I had a baby and my siblings were 4, 10 and 17.  I worked dead end jobs my entire life.. Usually two.  I caught cabs, walked etc until I worked my way up on vehicles..  My son is 32…  He use to be my best friend and so caring until his father got him to try meth.. Mind you his father never paid child support and never participated in his childhood at all.. They are now more like buddies! My son has daddy issues.  My son wants that relationship so bad but its toxic…  I am in his two daughters lives more than him.  He’s a smart and handsome guy with so much to offer..  I just don’t understand…

My daughter is 21… She does not party at all.  She is just existing.. She got pregnant and is struggling but living under my roof.  She alreadys has a son who i adore..  Baby number 2 is on her way in january..  She stays in bed until work.. Texts and argues with boyfriend..  No cleaning, no dishes… She had plans for college and has opportunities that I didn’t…  She pays no rent.  But still is evil to me because I voice my opinions.  SHE IS SO MUCH BETTER WHEN THE BOYS SHE DATES.. He is not allowed in my home. He is a thief loser with no job..  I just don’t even know what to do anymore but the things they both say to me are heart breaking… HELPLESS IN OHIO