I am trying to get it in my head that no matter what I did that it wouldn’t of worked.  It is very hard though when I changed into someone else during our relationship.  However, I do think if i would of stood up to her, she may have still felt guilty and such.  Making it to a point where she would want to end things.

Like I said, i will never really know for sure.  It’s just hard to let those thoughts go.  Hard to move on and enjoy life now.  Fridays are the worst.  That’s when i got most excited, cause I was going to see her.  I’m trying to be that way now with my girlfriend cause we only get fridays and saturdays together.